Why does it take an episode to make you appreciate things?

Hubby had another episode that sent us to the ER. He had been vomiting all night and morning and was not able to keep anything down. We left home at 9:30 am and did not get home until 5:30 pm. It was a very long day in the ER and we were in a room with just a curtain between the room and the next room. It was very hard to sit there and have to listen to everything going on in the next room when I just want to concentrate on my hubby. We told the doc to call our doc and let him know what was going on so that my hubby could be admitted. They called and he was off for the day and talked to one of his associates. The associate did not want to be responsible for him being admitted. We did not even make it home, and he was vomiting again. We came home and I called some neighbors to come and give him a blessing. They gave him a lovely blessing and he calmed down a little bit. He was still very nauseated and still vomiting so I called the ER and they said to come back.

When we got up there they had a 1-1/2 hour wait. UGHHH!!!!! He was admitted this time but did not get into his hospital room until 4 hours later. I did not get to bed until after 1:30 because some dork kept calling the cell phone. I would answer thinking it could be the hospital and it was some dork saying oops, wrong number!!! I was so MAD!!! Then hubby called me at 6:30 in the morning to say that he had a bad night and needed me to bring clean unders.... oh the joy.

I went and spent the morning and left at about 1 p.m. My hubby called at 4 and then again at 5 in a panic needing me to come to the hospital. By the time I got there he was panicking and the CNA told me that they had given him a combination of pain med and nausea med and he was having a bad reaction. He was not breathing well, shaking his legs like crazy, eyes dilated, and definitely out of it. It took 4 hours for the meds to wear off and he was okay (well enough) that I came home to take care of the kids and get them into bed.

I definitely can say that I love my husband and it tears me apart to see him so sick like this. I have to remember what a blessing it is to have a husband and all the blessings that God has blessed us with. I can only take my family to heaven with me and that is what keeps me going down the right road, I want to be with them when I die!

Where does the time go??

Miko had her 4th birthday this last week and it had me thinking where did the time go? It seems like only yesterday I was pregnant and miserable in the July heat and then going to the hospital to have a C-section to get her out into this world. Her birth was memorable because they had just cut me open and got her head out and she was screaming. I think she was demanding that they put her back into that nice warm place and not out in the cold operating room. She has been screaming since. She is the little princess in the family but I love her so much. It is interesting to look at my 3 children and see how different each one is but yet they come from the same parents. She is the little demanding princess yet so full of love, willing to give anyone a hug and has to have snuggle time. Now she is 4 which means next year my baby will be going to school, wow how time flies. It is still amazing to me to realize that I am a wife and a mom now. I spent so many years being single and thinking that I would never have the opportunity to be in the place in my life. Now here I am with a husband and children who have given me more love than I could have ever believed possible. I thank God every day for those blessings in my life!!

A week and a half and still surviving, well sort of!

As you can see it has been 1-1/2 weeks since my furlough, UGHH!! I finally was able to file my first unimployment claim, but the bad part is that my claim was still open from February/March when I was last furloughed and therefore I will be paid the same as then, which bites since I am making more money now, but will not count because of the claim being opened in February. I do not have to look for a job technically, but I think to survive I will have to find work. I am having a hard time trying to decide what to do. I have been applying for every job within IRS that I can but still it is a long wait and then probably will be disappointment. I have already received 2 rejections saying that I do not have the experience necessary.

For all of those moms out there that stay at home, my heart goes out to you, you are saints! It has been very hard dealing with all the bickering and fighting from the kids, it just seems to be getting on my nerves right now, can't be that I am a little down with the furlough situation, hehehe!!!

Well only 9 more weeks (or so they say, more like 6 months according to the others at work that started last year).